I can't believe that it has been just over 2 years since he left. Yes, things were really hard the year before he left, making it feel almost like 3 years now since things felt out of control.
I am doing better in many ways then I was even a year ago. Yet in many ways I feel like I'm still stuck in the same feelings. I'm still very angry at the choices that he made. I don't seem to know how to let go of that anger. Most of the time I deal with the anger when there are issues with the kids. It can be anything from them acting up to simply them needing something. One of my kids is growing very fast right now and he seems to always be in need of new clothes. I bought him 2 pairs of pants for Christmas and within a few weeks they were too small. So here we are mid January and he needs new pants.
I'm also lonely. I miss being held when I cry. I miss talking to him about my stress. I miss sharing the joys of all the new things the kids are doing.
